They tell you all the scary stuff, but the scariest thing they don't tell you is that you are gonna love it. You're gonna love it so much, and it will trick you because you just think, 'Oh this is nice, it's not that big of a deal.' I thought it was a blessing because I could focus in school. I did some pretty bad things. Things I would have never imagined myself doing, but it just escalates and escalates. That desperation, and the way that the drugs make you feel... It doesn't even matter at that moment what you do, you just have to get money any how, any way, to get your dope. My own family didn't even know who I was anymore. I didn't even know who I was anymore. Now I don't feel this constant pressure to have to go out and do something or be somebody that I'm not. I can just focus on being me.