"17 – not sure if this applies to everyone, but I have the expectations of an adult with the rights of a child. I have to go to school for 8 hours a day, then work for 3 to 5 hours, and manage all of my current responsibilities, while maintaining good grades to stay on the path of long-term educational and financial success. But I also have to ask permission to go to the bathroom."
it's okay. not everyone can commit to things or believe in something bigger than their own tiny brains that are extremely flawed.
religiots are so easy to trigger, cheesuhs is only fantasy, like saruman (not counting the gardener from mexico)
SJeezus probably existed, and was probably a great illusionist.
Meditate on this Burt and Sibbie - you are the rich man in this account.
We will see eventually. You might be surprised. Maybe in advance you could check the work of Lee Strobel.